Feeling blue

I don’t know why.

Life is supposed to be fine. My families just held birthday parties for me. Everything runs smooth, but I still cannot swipe away the blue feeling, it haunted me for awhile.

I don’t know why I have frustration after waking up these few days; I don’t know why I feel the loneliness.

Sigh…it should be the monthly hormonal changes…..

Revolutionary Road

Finally finishing the reading of this four hundreds something pages novel.

This is a totally heart-broken, beautiful written story.

I thought it was a sad story, but it was a tragedy.

The story uncovered the real world of US suburb families after the Second World War.  Precisely, it uncovered the problems of human-being - our selfishness, the weakness of love, the weakness of family.

Frank and April, the two main characters in the story are suffocated by the peacefulness of daily life.  They tortured each others because they are lost and confused.  Human being is fragile.

What was the problem of suburbanization?  I learnt this concept in geography text-book.  It explains how relatively well-off people moved to the fringe of cities to have a better and more spacious living environment.  Apparently, the real world is more complicated.

A heavy story.

THIRTY-TWO

原來,我下星期一就踏進三張有二的年紀,真不敢相信°  

比較二十二歲的我,現在感覺好得多°現在多了自信和踏實,少了那種莫名的迷惘感°  

還記得十年前剛踏進社會做事,要慢慢地模索做人處事的方法,我感到很吃力°幸好在這麼多年的打滾裏,我獲得點點的歷練,人比以前從容及聰明了點(當然在各方面我還有改善的空間)°

No pain no gain是對的°    

十年前我想起生孩子就害怕,十年後我已做了二子之母°他們成為我的新人生目標,並改變我的人生觀°寶寶們,多謝你帶給我的一切°

圖:二十二歲時拍下的見工相,很傻氣°

Fatina

Daddy bought us Chocolate Rain's Fatina!!! We are Daddy's princesses.

Thank you Daddy, I love this gift very very much.

Upper photo: me with Daddy, Linus and my lovely Fatina

Lower photo: The left one is my sister's Fatina, she dresses like my sister.

Life changing experience

I don’t know why, I want t have some changes in my life.
Precisely, I want to make my life more interesting, to have some new experience, to spread some confetti on my path.
Recently, an idea of learning dance pops up my mind from time to time. I believe learning dance can bring me new inspiration.
When I was helping Chrissie to search for yoga information, I discovered the largest yoga school in Hong Kong providing classes like Bollywood dance, Indian dance, Indo hip hop etc. I do love to join. However, when I was thinking about leaving the babies to Daddy and go dancing, I would miss the three boys terribly, even just two hours in weekend.
Sigh… then I give up this idea. Actually I always cancel my facial treatment booking because I don’t want to leave them, even just several hours.
Sigh… I think I should not think too much, I better stick with Shiva Rea’s yoga DVD and practice yoga at home……

Be a good cook

I remember when I was still Jeff’s girl-friend, he told me one day a husband is a lucky husband if his wife can cook great……

Frankly, I rarely walked into the kitchen except searching for food in refrigerator before 26 years old. My mom is a fantastic mom who can look after the household, make remarkably delicious food, and work full time at the same time. She seldom asked us to help housework. It was because; she wants us to spend time on our study.

At that time, I usually thought, it does not matter I do not know how to cook, as long as I earn enough money to hire someone to do it.

However, when Jeff told me about his thought, I was a bit embarrassed, and a bit frustrated, but I agreed with him wholeheartedly.

Several years later, I became a mother; at that time I did feel that I should know how to cook. Kids with a mom good at cook are very lucky; I want my children to be as lucky as me. Therefore every weekend if I have chance to make meals, I will try my best to do it.
Frankly, I am still at the semi-skilled cook level, but I will learn bit by bit. Being a good cook is one of my goals.

Poladroid picture

I make this by Polaroid software. It is beautiful.

Miss the days that Polaroid was popular.....

I have been a blogger for five years

Now I am stepping in the sixth years of my blogger life. This is the ‘diary’ I keep for the longest so far.

Keeping a diary is great. By reviewing my previous entries, I recall my joyful, miserable, doubtful, hilarious or frustrated moment. I feel I could then understand myself more, and I can ‘witness’ how I am evolving through the years.

Yesterday I made a huge ‘renovation’ for both ‘Manki’s secret diary’ and ‘Manki’s Martix’. I have also added in some gadgets, hope you would love it.

Thanks for my readers who support me over these few years. I am so delighted to share with you all my daily bits and pieces with you, hope you feel they are interesting.

Bunny Chocolate Muffins

Wow, I made the six bunny chocolate muffins on Saturday afternoon. I was very proud of myself. My family said they tasted very good, and looked so cute.

I bought the bunny mould in City Super (HK$90, as I remember). Muffin ingredients include self-raising flour, caster sugar, light cream, salt, eggs, chocolate, cocoa powder and unsalted butter. The preparation time was around 30 minutes, cooking time was 25 minutes.

I am planning to make bunny muffins during the coming Easter Holiday!

Shed the weight

After two weeks of regular work out, I can shed the fat from my body effectively.

I do exercises about 4-5 days a week, include:

Jogging
Yoga
Aerobic
Hiking
Tennis

Work out also brings me energy and strengths, I should keep this habit.