I can't take my eyes off you

That night when I was going back home, the radio was broadcasting the song "I can't take my eyes off you". The melodies were waving in the air, like deep blue seawater.

When reaching the end, "I can't take my eyes off you" gently replaced by "I can't take my mind off you."

What a great sublimation.

This song perfectly matches with the movie Closer, I still remember Alice (her original name is Jane) in the film. She did not even disclose her real name to her lover.

How close can a couple be? And how far can they be?

Extreme Motherhood - The triplet diaries

This is my birthday gift from Samantha, but she said I should lend her after I finish the reading.

It is a real story of Jackie Clune, a stand-up comedian and a regular radio broadcaster, who is a mother of 4 kids - one big sister and a set of triplet, which is, as she said "an accident" to her...

As a new mother of the second new born baby, I can feel her happiness and sadness through the words. I passed through some of her experience, but hers times three of mine. (I could not stop laughing when she felt she was making omelet as one of her eggs split to a pair of identical twin and another egg was not split and form a fraternal triplet). I love all her jokes, no wonder she is an outstanding comedian.

This is my best reading everyday during my milk expressing.

If you are a mother, or you think you will be a mother one day, you will love this book.

Exhaustive work life

This is the third week after I resumed work.

Everyday I felt totally exhausted. Express milk, work, express milk, work, endure those poker faces and bad temper, off work, take care of two kids, express milk, sleep, and then another day, repeat all these things.

I cannot lie to myself, I do not feel very happy at work. However, I am still very lucky to have many colleagues support me, except the one who work closest to me... Well, the world is not perfect.

Lucas was having fever today. Doctor said he did not have any flu or cold, the high temperature may be caused by his allergic nose, which is pretty bizarre.

Linus is as chubby as usual, he always wants to be carried. I held him almost the whole night, except the time I played with Lucas in between.

I felt asleep when feeding Lucas at 10pm, and suddenly woke up because I dropped the bottle off.

Sleep deprivation is the pitiest thing all parents experience. Thanks god we have a nanny, our situation is already slightly better.

Give me a break!!!

I wonder if I am having fluctuating hormonal changes again, I feel totally fed up these few days. A single word, a sigh or a gesture can piss me off.

I would be swung back to the open area again where my research friends 'situated'. I would no longer sit next to Jelly. I am fine with this arrangement and the director of my department said he would fight for the good seat for me. The good seat means a seat at the corner.

Then one of my bosses came up yesterday said he would like me to sit next to the main corridor. I told Jelly the place was not my favourite, he asked me to fight for the seat I loved. I went back to that boss and he said it was fine.

Then this afternoon my FEMALE boss (women are really difficult) sent an email to this male boss and said I didn't make sense because if I tucked in that corner seat would cause inconvenience to Jelly if he wanted to visit me because he had to passed by some many people (technically, just 1 person in front of me if I sit in that corner seat).

Then my boss asked me politely if I could accept the 'offer'.

At that moment, I think it is enough. Just a seat my bosses, no need to send so much energy and time to discuss who should sit where, okay?

But the peak of this story is, Jelly insisted that I should confront, and FORCED me to write an email back to my male boss that Jelly himself is concerned about the confidentiality of the job I handled so he preferred me to sit in the corner seat.

Well, I wrote back to my male boss, with the beginning "I am fine with your arrangement", and there is a usual "but", and continued.

Sigh... just a seat my bosses!!!!!

Sichuan destructive earthquake

The earthquake catastrophe happened on the Buddha's birthday this Monday (May 12). The current death toll reaches 12,000. Many buildings collapsed especially schools which built by relatively poor quality materials. Enormous number of people are still under rubble.

Pictures in the news reveal deep grief in the quake-stricken areas. I feel sad.

Lucas's birthday is approaching. For those who read this blog and was planning to send him a gift, please donate the money to whatever charity for earthquake relief. Lucas is a lucky and he already has owned a lot.

Please bless Sichuan.

Driving is interesting

Driving is fun, if you have good skill and are prudent.

After the 10 hours driving lessons, I have my second practice this morning. The first time was from home to the Festival Walk, Kowloon Tong.

Today, I drove from home to the Science Park in Tolo Harbour, then went up to the Chinese University. After a relaxing breakfast with Jeff there, I drove to Shatin New Town Plaza to search for a swimming suit.

Well, I still encountered the same problem as last year (I also mentioned this in my blog a year ago), whom on earth are those Roxy and Rip Curl bikinis/ two-piece made for? I had tried on so many, but none of them covered my body decently. Finally, I bought a one-piece Arena in Marathon. After all, I was a swimming team member in secondary school, I do need a "professional" swimming wear, which REALLY allows me to stretch my limbs in whatever angle in water.

I, again, was being a driver during the back home journey. To be frank, I was a bit freak out when driving especially when switching line and parking, but I still managed to arrive home in one piece.

Quite a good achievement.

A nice start

Something positive is happening.

I have resumed work since this Monday. I feel excited everyday when I get back to office. I do not think I have experienced this before, even in my previous works.

I am working in this Market Research film for four years. In the past around 1500 days, I did not particularly love my work. I just always claimed that I did not hate this job.

During the BK Era (Before Kid era), I felt extremely desperate to my job, I told Jelly I was totally burnt out and I thought about being a quitter, he did not agree because he saw my enthusiasm there, he believed I had just been deluded by the long working hours and comments from others. I do not think we were in the same page at that moment.

However, I find myself having a little bit interest in it now. When Chrisse offered her internal training about Projective Technique, I just felt, wow, qualitative research was amazing!!

I remember once Tin Tin told me, I might not be the most aggressive staff in the company as I was a mother of two, but I could enjoy the learning process. It was like in a marathon, I might not be a champion, but I chose the pace that I felt comfortable and enjoyable.

Well, it sounds so ideal but very difficult to implement it in reality, however I will try my best to achieve it. Wish I will make a record - to be a mother- of- two researcher in this company.

And... cross fingers that my enthusiasm towards market research would not be spoiled by the stress again...

Macarons

This is my first time to taste macaron. I tried Rose flavour, Jeff picked Citrus.

This French dessert looks cute, is like a little soap, but a bit too sweet to me.

The historical moment - Olympic torch relay in HK

I was 1 of 100,000 people who watched Olympic torch relay in Hong Kong today.

We arrived TST train station at 9:30am, luckily we did not have difficulty to walk to Nathan Road, the route where the third torch-bearer Andy Lau passed by. Although I couldn't see him in front of me as the place was extremely crowded, it was still nice to participate in such a memorable moment. Spectators greeted him ecstatically. The ambiance was filled with joyfulness.

After that we rushed back to train station and went to Shatin. We had spent two hours at Shing Mum River bank, before the flame appeared on the dragon boat. The 'runner' of this route was Sze Hang-yu, athlete (aquatics), she looked a bit shy, but totally delighted and honoured, was holding the torch tight and waving the cheering crowd along two sides.

At that moment, I just realized that Shatin was so beautiful, Hong Kong was so beautiful.

The mission of Olympic Game is "building a peaceful and better world", hope we can achieve this by embracing its core spirits of "friendship, solidarity and fair play".

Olympic Game, is belonged to everyone in this planet.

The photo of Sze Hang Yu with her Olympic torch is provided by the courtesy of Jeffrey Yuen