I am totally exhausted

My back is aching in these few days.


I don't know why, I just feel a bit depressed.


I find being a stay home mom is extremely exhausted, both mentally and physically.  I don't want to say this to others because everyone around you thinks you are a lucky thing and you are having great life because you don't need to work anymore (well, the part time job once a month not count).


Sometimes I could not stop to cry in front of the boys.  I feel I am a loser.


Thanks SATC 2 that now I know I am not alone.  Miranda and Charlotte shared the same feeling as mine.


However, it doesn't stop me to feel fatigue.

An interesting conversation between me and a girl

I visited Lucas in the kindergarten one day, other kids came to me and asked me to stay with them.
One beautiful 3-year-old girl sit next to me. She touched my hair when we were listening a story from a teacher.

'Your hair is very looooong and curly!' she said.

I thought it was a compliment, so I replied, 'your hair is also beautiful'.

However, she looked at me with a blank expression, then said, 'so why don't you tie up your hair?'
Well.... she thought my hair was messy....

I tried to hide my shocking look, then I responded, 'Oh... that is a good idea, but I don't have a rubber band, I have no money to buy one....'

The girl looked at me with the same blank face, then both of us turned our head back to the teacher.