Be faithful to myself

I supposed to have a really work-free and relaxing weekend, but a phone call from 'someone' almost ruined it.

She phoned me in the afternoon and told me to be careful as I had not signed up for an extra work. She sounded so helpful and caring, but I did wonder her intention. After I finished the phone call, I felt so upset and miserable, I wondered if it is my fault for not signing up that extra work.

Jeff saw that I was so depressed, actually I had been pressurized for quite a long time. I had my own thought and my own philosophy, but suddenly I started to think if my philosophy is not applicable in this real world. When I started crying, Jeff asked me to stop. He urged me to believe myself, to trust my talent, and to listen to my own thought, don't compromise with other's ridiculous expectation, otherwise I will lost myself, and people will torture me more.

And I know that job is not everything of my life. Rather, job is the least important things comparing with my family, my health and my wisdom. I don't want my family to be upset because I ignore him and only concentrate on my work.

I found that I discuss such kind of topic in this diary for almost a year, a bit pathetic, isn't it?

I should be faithful to myself, to believe the 'force', like what Jedi do.

Torture

Kelly had gone crazy today. Her emotion fluctuates like period, in monthly basis. Today Miss R offered her internal presentation, she got a conceptual mistake on a slide. Our flammable Kelly felt extremely frustrated instantly and scolded her in front of all colleague, then we all research executives were the next victims. Kelly commented that we are hopeless and 'bloody', yes, she used the coarse language to describe her employees. I wonder if a boss has the right to insult his/her employees and deprived their dignity just because he/she is the one who pays the bloody salary?! Could that limited amount buy the respect which we deserve to get?

Then someone just comments that among all regional offices of our company, research executives in Hong Kong are inferior comparing with other regions, it is because the education system molded us to be less competitive. Frankly, I do think this is bullshit. I don't think we are inferior, yes, we are different from colleagues from other countries, but each of us has our own talent and strengths, each of us is special.

We are so proud of Miss R that even Kelly screwed up her presentation at the very beginning, she could hold back her tears and managed to complete the presentation with strong confidence. Three cheers to her.

Can this case explain why the employee loyalty is so low among Hong Kong working class? I believe what happened in our company today is not an unique case.

Have a nice day!!

Feel that I have an obligation to contribute some positive energy to this cyber world. I wish to tell everyone that I enjoy today so much!!

Today, I boosted up my productivity to maximum and finished two work tasks. I could manage to leave office around 6:45pm.

I had a lunch with my friends this afternoon, we talked a lot.

I received a comment of last piece of diary from my lovely classmate Billie - she was the first classmate who sit next to me when we were in form 1.

Jeff and I had a very nice dinner in a Japanese restaurant, yummy!!

Then I sit on my bed and am writing this diary. A totally normal day but it is so cool!!

Stay healthy and young

As I had suffered from flu and cold on and off, I made up my mind to keep myself healthy and young. Herebelow are the tips from elderly wisdom, book and my experience.

1. Sleep well - both quality and quantity should be concerned. To have a nice sleep, I try to have a cup of hot chamomile tea with honey before going bed, the sweet aroma helps me to relax
2. Exercise - Practise yoga or other aerobic exercise at least 3 times a week, at least 30 minutes each time.
3. Taking supplement - I know that someone reject this idea so much because they believe the nutrients could be gotten from daily dining. However, my smart Daddy suggests Omega 3 fish oil pill does work.
4. Avoid make up if not necessary - frankly, someone could have make up everyday but still have fair skin, but unfortunately, it is not my case. Make up becomes a burden to my face when it lasts a day long. Seems that it is wiser to keep my skin breathes and glows naturally.
5. Pamper myself, facial treatment frequently.
6. Outdoor activities - Staying indoor with strong air conditioner only makes me dull, should absorb golden sunshine during weekend.
7. Reading and watching movie - beautiflying myself internally.
8. Be happy, learn to let go - don't be too serious for every tiny little things, it could just speed up the aging rate and deepen the fine lines on face.
9. And the most important is, having an open mind, accept myself and everyone, should love and care myself!!

Do you have any little tips to brighten up your everyday? Let's share!!

Pamper myself

I worked very hard last week, then I am sick, having a cold again. Something I don't understand how come I should work so hard everyday for such little monetary reward, what is the meaning of life? The art of exploitation?

Therefore this weekend I tried to pamper myself.

Today I woke up late and then went for the facial and eye treatment in Clarins. Then I brought two CDs in HK Record, one is the new CD from Katie Melua. Her voice is sweet and special, she led me to have a long nap in the afternoon.

Tonight, I had body scrub during the shower, then moisturized my skin with clarin's Eau Tranquility body lotion. Wow, the aroma is very nice!!! Now I am ready to go bed.

Haagen-Dazs Rum Raisin & symbolic analysis

I suspect someone is implementing a secret planning - to add some weights on me!!!

Guess what, some one in my flat (you know, there are only me and him in our flat) bought a BUCKET of Haagen-Dazs ice-cream, with my most favourite flavor - Rum Raisin, and now it is on my left hand side, right next to my notebook... Oh my goodness, what is his intention??!! He just tries to push me into the ice-cream and sugar craving trap.

Jeff and I saw Star War Episode III - Revenge of the Sith yesterday afternoon, wow it is awesome!! It is so sad to witness Anakin sold his soul to the dark force and became Darth Vader.

Remembered that when I studied Anthropology, our class discussed about Star War and Harry Potter. Both stories have one similarity - Harry Potter and Luke Skywalker also inherited energy/power from the darkness. For example, the scar on Harry Potter's forehead contained the dark power from Voldermort, while Luke is the son of Darth Vader. Isn't it interesting.

Oh you see? Anthropologists obsessed in symbolic analysis, we are quite weird, frankly speaking.

Malaysia – Truly Asia

Almost finished my 5 days business trip in Malaysia. You may wish to know what I learnt in this journey. Intellectually, I don’t think I know quite a lot, but physically, I am sure I gain several stones, because in everyday someone paid me a lunch or dinner and I could not refuse to eat.

There is much open and green area in KL than HK, and the air quality is fine. The weather is pretty unstable, but storm comes and leaves fast, and you then will feel the sun shining above your head warmly.

As I am staying in the central business district in KL, I could even see the twin towers from my hotel; the impression that this place gives me is beautiful and prosperous. However, I am sure this country is more than this. Malaysia is a hybrid place of various ethnicities, multi-languages and diversified landscape. Hope I could have chance to explore more.

This is the first time for me to have a formal oversea business trip, and the almost the first time to stay in a hotel room all by myself. In the first night, I scared a lot and could not fall asleep. However, in the next few days, I implemented a 4-pillow policy, i.e. using the 4 pillows to surround me, 1 under my head, 1 under my legs, 2 on each side, then I could have a sound sleep.
Hurray, I will come home tonight. Jeff missed me a lot, and also my family and friends. Just can’t wait to meet you all!