What I had learnt in the last 2 years?

Well, I had worked in this field for two years, what had I learnt? Seems I am walking is a strange learning path, my learning curve goes up, but in a weird way... Am I professional enough? Definitely not. I hate to be a quitter, but what can I do? Can I see my future? Probably not, I do not have a clear picture in front of me.

How come I am so miserable all the time??

Jelly is out of office, I do not know where he is, seems he has a lot of business to take care of, the work here is not interested to him anymore!!!

Frankly speaking, his frequent absence does not make me feel good.

What we believe but cannot prove

Currently read this book. 'What we believe but cannot prove?' is a question posed by John Brockman in his website and attracted many contemporary scientists and thinkers from various aspects to contribute their ideas. They have diversified answers to this question, which include the string theory, the existence of afterlife, the existence of God, extraterrestrial species, etc. All these instinct believes create swirls of debate across different regimes.

Highly recommend for those who are interested in science, or who still remain their curiosity like kids.

For details, please visit www.edge.org

Night Night

Have not stayed in front of the home PC for hours quite a long time. Now I am in my room, typing this piece of entry.

Yesterday I went to Ocean Park with my family, including Lucas. Every corner recalled my childhood and teenage memories, which are as colourful as jelly beans. I remembered the great time I've spent in the Water World for 3 months as a life guard more than 10 years ago.

Now I become a new mother, with a little boy in my arms. Wow, our generation is different from our parents' one. We are lucky enough to share the same childhood memories with our kids. Ocean Park is always a wonderland!! This is a place that the Disneyland could not replace.

Life is so amazing. Children always remind you how beautiful the world is.

Talk less, do more

The longer you work, the more you know how to behave, the lesser you would speak, or, you would refine your words before you talk.

I saw some vivid examples illustrate that sometimes a person speaks something expose his weakness and incapability; or he does something which he thinks it is cute but it is actually irritating from others' eyes.

Of course, it is somehow sophisticated and the should learn from experience. Luckily I improved a lot in this aspect throughout all these years.

Podcast

One day I showed Jelly my IPod proudly, and told him that I was using Podcast - I download BBC and CNN news from Podcast everyday and listened to the programs when I commuted to and from work. 'Then, you now can listen to any oversea radio programs you like with no limitation.' I said.

Then the next day, he told me 'I tell my daughters about the Podcast!'

'Really? What did they say?" I sound enthusiatically.

He replied, 'They think I am an idiot and said "of course, we use it everyday!!"'

I couldn't help to stop laughing, kids nowsdays are the trendest customers of all electronic gadgets.

Zombie

I was like a zombie last week, my brain capacity dropped to 30% only. Could not recover after the weekend, that’s why I have taken a whole day rest yesterday. Now is slightly better, but still keep yawning while working.

Need to work on the coming Saturday, but we plan to go to Ocean Park this Sunday. Hope the weather would be fine that day, I will bring Lucas along, he must be very happy. I haven’t met any baby who is as outgoing as him.

So what I can be in this Halloween? Surely a zombie is the most effortless character I can act, just need several pieces of bandage wrap over my body, and I just need to maintain my semi-conscious status while walking on the street.

My career is like a slow train crawling up the hill

Where will I be in the next few years? Where is my future? I think I am devoting to my job but it is still far from enough. My career development is like a low train crawling up the hill - now is in the middle of no where and cannot see the destination, it is also too dangerous to stop the train.

The worse thing is, I am having a baby on the train.

Tell me what should I do. I am so incapable.

Circles of friends

We had two gatherings with our old friends in this month. One was the dinner gathering with my HKU drama folks. All of them stepped into the new life stage, became mature and stable. I haven't seen them for many years, the last gathering was on my wedding night. We even brought Lucas to meet them. Everyone just could not leave their eyes of him.

Another gathering was with Jeff's schoolmates. 17 pals (me and Jeff inclusive) had a BBQ party in Yuen Long. We left home at 10:30pm and came back home at 5:00am in the early morning. Haven't been that wild for a long time!

Heard from my sister that she and my parents will go to Ocean Park for the Halloween celebration tomorrow night. I should work late, wish they enjoy their time!

萬曆十五年

萬曆十五年，在歷史上亳不起眼的一年，但它總括了明朝積弱以至亡國，及後中國自此衰落直至現在的原因。

今晚我跟謝夫去了看胡恩威編導的同名話劇。全場一氣呵成，間中還加些爆笑位，酸溜溜地反映荒誕汙腐的社會狀況及不堪入目的政治角力。簡單一字總結：掂。

胡恩威謝幕時，突然說不出話，我還以為他想說一些很感性的說話...然後他話：「其實我想講希望大家填咗依份問卷...」

大力推介，尚餘少量門票。