Taurus

I had a lunch with Pui Pui this afternoon, it is always nice to meet someone you know for more than a decade.

She said I am a typical Taurus person - extremely stubborn person, always insist on somethings that have no strong reasons. She is talking about my breast-feeding 'project'.

I am still producing breast milk but actually I feel very exhausted, it even slows down my recovery process, but I still don't want to stop it, for the sake of my baby, or for the sake of the aim I set to myself.

However, I know that it starts making bad impact to my body. What can I do? Where is the happy balance?

Finally we have done the review

Finally, my bosses can spend time to do the review with me, I am glad to know that I would have a salary increment and they plan to promote me at the early next year. Frankly speaking,I am a bit surprised by the salary adjustment because I didn't expect about it, even though the level is not very high, it shows me they acknowledge my effort.

I feel happy about it.

Sweep away the clouds

Clouds and miseries are in my head these few days. I was weepy and sensitive. This Tuesday, I was upset when Jelly commented on my work. I pulled a long face and created the unbearable tension in the room (now I sit just next to him), I left office at 6pm.

I couldn't believe that in the next day, he left a note on my deck, he wrote 'A big smile for you. You're doing fine, you are too critical of yourself.' He even drew a big mounth with some round teeth on it.

I knew that he had a lunch with other bosses yesterday, he told them I was extremely stressful recently and forced myself to be excel in all aspects. Other bosses were a bit surprising and asked Jelly to tell me not suffocate myself, and give myself sometimes to get use to the new role of working mom.

All of them are very nice. Actually I have some beloved ones also supported me unconditionally in the recent time, especially Jeff and my family. Jeff is a very caring person and he is the only one who suffered all my emotional changes everyday. When he asked what gift I would like to have as a reward of being a good mother in these few month, I told him it is not necessary because his caring is already the best gift.

Premier Banking

I always handle priority banking studies, but I am not rich enough to be a priority banking account holder.

Today I helped Jelly to deposit a check to his Premier Banking account in HSXC (frankly speaking, this is out for my job duty, I am not his secretary! But now I should spend my Saturday morning to handle this stuff, I will refuse to do it next time), I asked a staff in the Premier Banking centre to handle it.

Can you guess what had happened to me? The CS representative asked if I am his secretary, and she stated that only Premier Banking account holders could use the service in that centre IN PERSON. She still did it for me but she explained because I carried a baby this time and didn't want to make any inconvenience to me. The hidden message is... she didn't have to serve me actually.

It is quite embarrassing especially when you stood in the 'centre' of that centre and some other customers were around, when she said the above things loud enough to let everyone heard it.

If I am eligible for priority banking service in the future, definitely I will not go for HSBC... Oops, I leak out the real name of this bank.....

And I will tell Jelly he made me so lame, and I am a MARKET RESEARCHER, not his SECRETARY, unless he pays me extra salary!!!

Monday blue was gone, should have a bright Tuesday

Well, I have a big obstacle of pathing my career development in this company...

There are two problems causing this:
1. I have a baby now, my bosses perceived I am not a 100% devotee to job. They don't think 'balance in life' is a normal way to live your life.

2. I work very close with Jelly but my payroll is still under my bosses. Afterall, Jelly is just a PARTNER of this company, not a PART of this company. I know there are some confrontations between the two parties before.

I evaluated my performance from time to time. You know, when you feel something strange in your career development, you should not blame everyone in the first place, instead, should have a retrospect of what you have done. So far I think I work smart and hard in my jobs, I handle all projects well, and Jelly satisfies what I have done. However, the system in this company cannot access it. Strictly speaking, there is no system in this company.

If your boss offers you a review without asking your immediate senior's comment, and when you ask him what he thinks about you, he says: 'Sorry, actually I don't know you, I am not in the right place to judge you....' What will you feel? This happened on me in the last round evaluation. So, what is the ground my bosses used to decide my salary increment and promotion opportunity? Nothing!!

Well, even Jelly said it's time for me to have some changes, if I cannot see any bright future here.

I will have the review by this Wednesday or Thursday, if Kelly respects me and won't change it again, let's see....

Light Out Hong Kong 888

Will you join 'Light Out Hong Kong 888' tonight? Switch off all light at 8 pm on Aug 8 for 3 minutes , in order to hightlight your concern of air pollution in Hong Kong, and for me, in worldwide.

I do hope I could participate it, but I worry if I am in my way back home at that moment. If we could rush back home before 8, Jeff and I will stay in our room, with Lucas in my arms, and enjoy the quiet and light-less 3 minutes.

Environment protection is not only about slogans, it is a value, a life style, the way you respect our planet, all species, and our next generations.

Is that what god damn civil eduation about???

Hong Kong is no difference with other places, here is full of injustice. However, at least, we still have certain degree of freedom of speech. Otherwise the media cannot broadcast the embarrassment of Mr. Heung Cheuk-Kei - the cousin of Chief executive Mr. Donald Tseung, and head of the Committee on the Promotion of Civic Education.

Since 1986, Mr. Heung had turned a government land to private residential use... illegally. He converted the warehouse into a fascinating private housing and a garden. The total area is as huge as several football fields.

Mr. Heung rejected all criticism; he claimed he is not a resident of that house because he stayed there for only 2-3 days a week. Obviously, the house is his villa, according to his explanation, but is a villa a residential land use?

Not to mention he had already broken the labour rule that the Philippino maid he hired to safe guard this house, if this is not his living place.

The whole incident is not only about land using, but the way he faced his fault, does this what civil education mean in Hong Kong? No wonder I don't have any empathy when watching at the propaganda which promotes patriotism he puts on the TV, and I don't surprise anymore when seeing kids who rush into MTR cabinet and fight a seat with elderly people.

So far Mr. Tsueng still makes no response to this news.

She looks like a peasant??

Is there really the great difference between local and westerners in term of the perception of beauty??

Many Hong Kong people thinks Kathy Chow is stunning, Jelly thinks she looks like a peasant in Mainland China.

I guess he doesn't really know how do Mainland China peasants look like... Or, most Mainland China peasants are model-like, he guesses.

Be prepare

Last Saturday, I helped a tiny old lady taking her trolley up to mini bus, and another old lady to get her seat. Both of them felt so happy and thanked me.

It is a joy to help people and make others happy. Being a girl guide, I always remember our motto - 'Be Prepare!' - Be prepare to help others. When you spread the happiness to other, he/she will pass it forward.

I enrolled to be a girl guide when I was 13 years old, although I am no longer a girl in the blue uniform, I will never forget the pledge I made during the enrolment, this is the promise:

I promise that I will do my best,
to do my duty to God,
to serve Hong Kong,
to help other peoples,
and to keep the guide's law.

East Kowloon 13th company is always my anchor.

He is such a caring person

My maid told me the maid of one of our neighbors praised Jeff all the time. This is the verbatim:

'Wah, the baby's father is a v-very caring person ha!' I wondered how come she picked up Chin-glish so fast, I never spoke to her in this way.

'Why does she know?' I asked.

'She saw Jeff washed his own car and cared his wife (that's me) and his baby much lor.' She said.

'Wow, seems she may know lot of our secrets!!' I replied.

'No la, she can see us through the window ma, then she saw him washing his car all the time.’

Well, can you see the dynamics in a community? You can't believe someone you don't know know you so much, and you also don't know he knows you so much!!!

It makes me think about those housewives in 'The Desperate Housewives'!