Pampering myself

After an exhaustive week, I am now having a thick layer of Clarins Thirst Quenching Hydra-Care Mask, burning several drops of Jurique Geranium and lime essential oil, sucking a little piece of Melty Kiss Green Tea Chocolate, and indulging myself in this silly diary, the ambience is sosososo facinating.

Last weekend I had a head transplant operation.... I mean I had a new hair style, I straightened my hair and trimmed it shorter, mom said I look younger, hurray~~ it is much more effective than taking anti-aging pills.

This afternoon, I will go out for crazy shopping!!! Otherwise I could not make myself balance psychologically.

COLD

I had surrendered to the virus again. I got a cold, quite serious this time, I feel so drowsy yesterday, then I took a sick leave and slept, but all the dream was about working and job. I even dreamt at very early morning that I was drafting an email to my boss to ask for a day sick leave. When I woke up, I had to take some time to figure out whether it was true or just a dream...

Today my productivity was out of expectation; I could manage to finish several tasks. But when 7:00pm, I felt very dizzy and hungry, and then I decided to leave.

I found my emotion tied up by the job too much, and I do not know how to relieve the pressure, it makes me suffer a lot. Sometimes, I confuse and become very neurotic, for example, the office politics could suffocates me; I know I think too much and something I am not in the position to control, I try to learn to be a simple girl.

Remember a colleague in my first job told me a norm in workplace: you work to make fun and make money. If you boss could pay you satisfactory level of income, it is ok to endure the unavailability of fun, but one day, if you stay in your job which make no fun and no money(or extremely under what you deserve), then quit (but make sure you have confidence and substance to get another job)

Luckily, so far I could get both fun and money (but surely more is much much better) in my current job.

My daddy's blog

Hey remember I told you that my daddy was going to launch his own blog? It is on air now, you are welcome to visit charles223.blogspot.com.

I am so proud of him. He is surely an adoptor of all cutting-edge technologies, just like all trendy young guys, he got his own MP3, digital camera, nike sport shoes, columbia shirt.....

I do hope to see his new piece of diary soon!!!

Notebook

Wow the feeling is so fab right now because I am using a brand new notebook - Toshiba Portege R150 - on my bed, am doing this piece of diary with the help of wireless lan. I just like those high tech gadget kids who keep abreast in the technology trend, or those charming writers like Carrie in Sex and the City who did her writing at the midnight with her delicate notebook.

Haha, surely I sound silly because notebook is no longer something new, but I just feel fantastic.

Could you spot out that there are many people using notebook in Coffee Shop, esp. in Starbuck? Most of them may bring along one book (should be English) to present themselves they are so sophisticated and experiencing a BOBO kind of life... Notebook sometimes can be a piece of jewellery or a decoration.

Revitalization

Today everythings seems back to normal, smiles return on my face.

I am that kind of person shows all feelings on my face, I cannot fake my emotion. I am not sure if it is good or not, but I am so lucky to have several very sweet colleagues to support me when I was in the turmoil.

The prior thing I should do is to revitalize and energize myself, and concentrate on my job again. I may attend another yoga class this weekend.

Two of my dears are in hospital, hope god bless them and give them strength to face all obstacles.

P.S. The trousers I wear today keeps shrinking after wash everytime, I feel a little bit uneasy in it....

Ewwwwww.....

After the depression, seems everything is on the right track again.

Tonight I will go for yoga class with Sam, to allow myself to relax and restore my psychic energy.

We are so new-age people, right? Talking about new age, one of my Christian friends consider yoga and all other new age related activities (e.g. homeopathy, aromatherapy, etc.) are cults... It is really an interesting insight, if I have time, I hope to do a more in-depth research about this topic.

Break out

Right, this afternoon, eventually, I felt extremely frustrated and cried. But I am not vulnerable, crying is my own way to make my emotion balance.

I am not a coward person, I will use my all energy to fight for fairness and justice!!

Come Back

Hi, no need to be surprising, it is me again, just finished another work task, hiding myself in this tiny little coffee shop and relax right now. Don't worry boss, I will crawl out certain time.

Undeniably that our company is quite hands off. As long as you could manage your own business, no surveillance will threaten you. That is why I could dive my head to the monitor and keeps typing this piece of diary.

Hey by the way, just want to tell guys/gals that I decided to travel USA in coming February (Grace, I will visit you somedays, don't worry). Hope it will be an interesting trip.

Jelly Bar

As I am a well-known lip gloss licker, Sam sent me an orange colour lip gloss crayon from Korea, it is called ETUDE Jelly bar. Thanks Sam so much.

Not that zzzzz as this morning, but still feel quite pressurized. My diary becomes my good friend.

Sam, the Jelly bar tastes sweet, and I will try my best not to chew it.

Umm... I had drafted a piece of diary last Friday but have no time to put onto blog, let me quote it here:
From Jan 14 12:55pm
Phew!! I offered the proposal presentation in front of clients FIRST TIME in my life!! I was so nervous at the very beginning, but after the warm up, and having sips of green tea in between the gaps when Freddy supplemented my content, I feel much better. Frankly, it is still much room for improvement, but the clients did not get any annoying facial expression during the presentation.

In the next weekend, I will have an internal presentation in front of my colleauge, it is one for training events, which is definitely not a bad idea. After the warm up last Friday, I think I will have more confidence to present in 'public'.

Not sure if I will come back later on this afternoon again.... If I will be, it means that I am definitely crazy and stressful.

ZZZZZZ.....

Good morning my working place.

After a rest at weekend, don't know why I had not revitalized, still feel sleepy... (I fell asleep in mini bus, KCR and MTR when I was commuting to office.

Loads of works wait for me but just have no mood to do. Frankly, I think I am in a semi-conscious state, my brain doesn't function that well now.

Last Friday I had finished the Princess Diary - Sixsational, last night had started another new book, i.e. Men from Mars and women from Venus, not bad!!

Alright, try my best to go back to work!!

Unbearable commitment

Many female friends hope to get marry but they have no confidence to maintain it. Some of them believed marriage is just a ritual which 'performing' to your relatives and friends, it is actually no difference to get marry or not if you really love your partner, and 'marriage' is just a bonus.

I could tell you that marriage is much more than a ritual. The ritual which demonstrating the commitment you promise the one you love is called 'wedding'. Wedding will have zero meaning if you do not respect the relationship at behind.

Many people asked me that if I really love that person, why don't you think about to cohabit with him? They said it is definitely have no meaning to get marry actually. Given that with the basic condition, e.g. financially stable, if you decide to devote to the one you love in life-long term, how come you scare to give him/her a promise of being married? Believe me, once you are in the marriage, you commitment and responsibility is much more that simply being a pair of couple.

One of my friends argues that she thinks getting married is unwise because, if one day, the two are divorce, if they have not got married they could have less things to handle and worry. I could tell her in front of her face directly, that means that she has no confidence and preparation to the marriage relationship, once you have confidence (don't get me wrong, having confidence doesn't mean having fantasy), you will have strengths to face all temptation and difficulties. I can't see what is wrong in there if you just want to announce your promise to your lover socially and legitimately?

And, don't get me wrong again, I don't think it is wrong of not getting marry, it is really a very personal decision, and I also believe that being single is absolutely cool choice, you do not need to bear tones of responsibility, marriage means getting united of TWO families, and I don't think that not getting marry means you are not serious in your relationship. My point is, everyone has their own way to go, but we should have make a thoughtful choice and with no regretting after all.

My final point is, don't get marry if you just want to actualize your fantasy of being a stupid princess in that day, but marriage means you want to commit to the one you love in whole life. Although it may be very very painful and does not promise it will be success finally.

Respect the marriage system, please!

NEW TEMPLATE

Dear readers,

I have changed the template, wish to give you a little surprise in this brand new year. I love it very much, very classic and elegant. What do you think?

I wish to improve this 'online-diary' to make it more readable and interesting. Please do not hesitate to give me any comments or suggestions.

In the future, I wish to write more book reviews and movie reviews. I will take this vitural place as a coffee shop and share my feeling and idea with you. Imagine that if we could sit in a cozy little restaurant and with cups of latte in our hands, and talk about everything we like to, isn't it very nice?
Look forward to meeting you here soon my dears!! =)

Alla famiglia

I've learnt a very beautiful Italian term - alla famiglia, it means 'we are family'. (Grace, correct me if I am wrong).

The concept of family seems very dynamic in our culture. Sometimes 'family' does not mean anything about kinship. Just take a very simple example, our company has an idea that all colleague in all regions are in a family. We share sympathy, love, and caring. We support, appreciate and forgive each others all the time.

Sound fantastic? Of course, the real situation is much more complicated than this. Politics forms once more than one person exists, not to mention actually we have numbers of regional offices, peer circles and individuals interlock with each others. In fact, we compete resource, we show off our performance and we fight for power.

And, sometimes I believe the idea of alla famiglia legitimates the exploitation to employees (include me). As long as you are one of the family members, you are expected to do something to achieve the solidarity, to sacrifice yourself sometimes to do a favour to the whole 'family'. It makes you feel embarrasses being too 'individualistic'. It is not appreciated if you wish to calculate how much you wish to get from the company (especially in monetary sense)

I had worked for several years after graduation, and I form my philosophy, i.e., you could devote in your job, you should be nice to your colleague and contribute to your company, and good team spirit is very important to maintain the harmonic relationship in your workplace. You could also make friends and make fun with your colleague (although it is not that easy, that is why I treasure my relationship my nice colleague). However, the relationship between myself and the company is mainly based on economic mutual benefit. The company pays me for my effort and contribution, but not because my boss is my parent and give me pocket money. I do not believe 'alla famiglia' concept is feasible in any office management.

Is 'Confucianism' really that influential in our culture?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

The first working day in 2005, I am still surviving.

2004 calendar was filled with battle, bloodshed, tradegy, and disaster. World peace seems unreachable, but I still hope it will come one day.

It's time to make a new year resolution:
1. More stable life
2. Improve physical and mental health
3. Read more and write more
4. Do more exercise
5. Be nicer to others, including those I love and I hate
6. Be more mature
7. Work harder
8. Stay sweet and cheerful, keep smiling
9. Be braver, gentler and more sincere
10. Travel more countries, broaden my view

Hope all of them can work out.