Any way out?

Have came back to this village for more than two months, I am still feeling isolated and invisible. All villagers are so nice to me. I still have to handle some eyesores, but I don't think any villages without shits. There is really no problem of this village, and I tried to join more activities here, but I still could not sweep away that unbearable feeling.

I always want to make some change, I want to move out but I am a bit scared to leave this comfort zone, Everytime when I try to walk away, I feel a bit shaky.

I must be crazy.