An irritating me

Kelly Larry is right...I am contradicting myself.

The agreed date to resume my work is on May 5, it was accepted by my bosses after an uncomfortable negotiation. However, now I want to get back to work earlier, because I miss my work, and I feel guilty as my teammate is having extraordinarily heavy workload.

On the other hands, I know I will miss my kids terribly... I wanted to extend my maternity leave in the first place because I wanted to breastfeed Linus longer, and to spend more time in his first few months.

Gee.. I hate myself... I am so irritating...